Inimitable Relationship

I think I've have to go beyond words to express myself to You now. I'm not sure how to communicate, and I have no idea where to go. Sinfully drunk, staggering through the straight and narrow path. I have so much to do, with a limited amount of breaths to do it in. And my wicked nature absorbs so much of this time. How to redeem myself in Your eyes?

I am scared. I won't lie to You. I can't imagine what will be said -- and to think it never had to be this way. I've done it all to myself.


Passion. Anger. Devastation. Fury. Disgrace. Feeling. Gasping for air. Healing. Hoping. Renewing.


Did You know? Did You know this could/would happen to us? Your beauty is everywhere. Will Your healing follow? Will it follow someone who willfully fights against You everyday? Could I be the very thing that separates what I learned was an inseparable love?
I hope I can look back someday and remember these years with a shudder, thankful that they were a thing of the past. But this chapter never seems to close. O, fear the Lord! Fear Him and repent! For one can never comprehend how awesome and mighty and just He is and will be. O, fear the Lord and repent...